Forgiveness: An introspective look

Someone close to me, (well, close at that time) once told me, blatantly "the reason you have so many anger issues is because you have forgiveness issuess..." Looking back on that conversation, I can't honestly say that I've ever overcome those issues. Now, I know how to let things just roll of my back, or brush them aside completely. But if ever wronged: do I; can I; and will I, truly be able to forgive?


***I wouldn't label my relationship with my Father as 'estranged'...but if there was a word for "probably 2 steps below that" I'd go with it.***


It's safe to say that I've effed up a time...or 263. Among all those occassions (believe me 263 is on the 'light' side) I know that I've caused harm...intended or not. Was I ever forgvien? Did I deserve to be? Really, how could I expect someone to forgive me for something I've done, when I'm reluctant to do it myself. Sort of an adaptation to the old adage of you can't love someone unless you love yourself first. I said 'sort of'!?



Anyway, I have a friend who's pretty miffed at me (for a good reason) and I wonder if I'll ever be forgiven. My words/actions have caused a pretty large canyon between us and I don't expect it to shrink anytime soon.

***My Father's birthday is next week. My Daughter is 3 years old. Yes, I'll send my Father a birthday card. No, my Daughter has never met her grandfather.***


Damn.

Quick shots:

Lost amidst the Fiddy v. Kanye showdown is the fact that Fiddy's joint is not only NOT better than Kanye's, nor will it outsell Kanye...it's not even the SECOND best hip-hop album released this week. That spot is filled by The Dream Merchant vol. 2 by 9th Wonder.


This story has also been on the hush hush at the University of Maryland

and there it is...